Friday, October 7, 2011

I just wanna complain for a minute

Thankfully no one told me that with each treatment I'd feel worse. I honestly thought they'd all be about the same as far as side effects go. Boy was I wrong! I've spent over half the night and morning in the bathroom, taken tons of anti nausea meds, my fingers are tingling, my skin hurts to the touch, my bones ache, Laying on one side for too long hurts, but flipping to the other hurts my port. I'm hungry, but feel sick. I'm cold, I'm hot, my eyes burn, I'm tired but can't sleep, I want to get out of this bed for more then a trip to the bathroom, but my heart starts racing, my legs feel like jello, and it takes way too much energy! Its dark in my room, but the sun hurts my eyes, and all the while my cat is just laying here staring at me wondering why the heck does she look like a Katy Perry song!

ok I'm done... just had to get that out! 

6 comments:

Caroline said...

Hang in there Heather. Keep in touch with us. You are fighting hard and we are all there for you.

Anonymous said...

Not sure if you are reading emails but I sent one 9/22 if you have time to read.

Unknown said...

Please, Heather. Just don't stop believing him.., or Him. Other than par-, glad to hear you sound ok; so beautifully. Thank you for help confirming the many prayers you are per your update. God bless you and help to keep you strong. ~

Unknown said...

I'm guessing you sugar coated this for the rest of us? I'm sorry it has gotten worse every week. One more bad one to go; here's to hoping the next round is a little easier on you (but still kicks the cancer's butt!)

jpinkpanda7 said...

Wow Heather I am so sorry you are going through all of this, what a challenge! I believe you have the right to complain any time you need to, especially if it helps, even just a little.

The Zagorski's said...

Keep on talking and venting or whatever you need to do!! You are gonna kick this in the butt majorly!

I hope you feel better fast and if it helps any the pic of you and the family by your photograph is amazing and no one would ever know that you've been feeling the way you do.

Love you!
Laurie