Tuesday, July 26, 2011

From one Wednesday to the next

After speaking with the Dr. this morning we decided to go ahead with surgery tomorrow morning. He has me scheduled to go in at 9:30am for a bilateral mastectomy. Last Wednesday at that time in the morning I was preparing myself to leave for my biopsy which also was my very first semi-surgical procedure. So not only will this be the first time I've been admitted to the hospital for something other then giving natural birth to my children, but it will be the first time EVER that I have had surgery. I have cried so much over the last 5 days, that I don't know where the tears can possibly come from and yet they still flow hot and heavy.

The reality of this is tomorrow afternoon I will no longer have breast, and yet I can not even imagine what that will be like. I don't know how I will feel either emotional or physically. I don't know what it will look like, and lately all I can say is "I don't know".

I am so grateful for the support, and yet feel so unworthy. My family, friends, and churches have all rallied around me, offered prayer and support, encouraging and comforting words and Bible verses. A person couldn't possibly feel more loved, and alone at the same time.

The details of tomorrow are as follows I will be admitted to day surgery at Goshen Hospital at 8 am, and be prepped for surgery around 8:30. The doctor said the surgery will be around 3 to 4 hours long, and I may leave that evening, but I may be staying one night depending on how I do.

Thank you all again for your support it is much needed and appreciated now and in the weeks and months to come.

6 comments:

Everinghams said...

Love you...will be praying constantly tomorrow. You can do this, you are amazing.
Carly

Promised2Jesus said...

Did they ever tell you what stage it was? I will be praying for you and hope you can feel the love and prayers of the saints! Love you friend!

everingham5 said...

Heather, you are a strong amazing woman,wife ,mother & friend. God WILL get you through this & all our love is being sent your way. There are LOTS of us Everingham's & others here to support you & Nate!

Two Bibliomaniacs said...

You are completely in our thoughts and prayers Heather! I only wish you could feel the hugs we are sending on your direction. You are a strong woman and your openness and honesty has already been a blessing to me. Erin

Emily and Erin © 2010 Hey Sisters! Photography said...

My name is Emily and I recently saw a link to your blog on Facebook. I want you to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. I pray that God gives you strength and comfort - and most of all a FULL healing. Many blessings to you and your family. ~Emily Allison

Caroline said...

Heather we are here for you. WE love you so much!